I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing. But I guess this is my last effort to feel anything again. But I feel like I’m disappearing or becoming a background character in someone else’s story. I’m afraid I’ve forgotten how to get caught up in a moment, how to laugh until I cry and I’m afraid that all of my best moments are behind me. And the thought of that scares me even more bcuz it’s almost worse than disappearing.

I am aware that this is a site based on sex. And sex sells. But I’m just starting to get my feet wet in this and I’m actually a shy person so bear with me while I get the hang of it and get comfortable enough to find my groove and whether or not I’m able to actually be able to do some of the things that I wish I had the courage to do.